~You’re Not Alone~

My heart filled with mix feelings... am I ok? am I not? I don't even know. But what I know... it's heavy. Why? Why it doesn't feel good? hahaha... I'm crying now. Stress? maybe... tomorrow is the start of my tortures. Damn... I don't know... I just need someone to poke me from behind and say HEY! CHEER UP! ^^;; hahaha... I feel so selfish now. I couldn't do anything when they need me and when I need them I cried... LOLZ. BANG HEAAAD! hahaha! That what I always do when I emo before! Sorry mushy! I couldnt stop crying now. Listen to songs that momo gave me soothes me a little. ^w^ NYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~! WAKE UP STUPID MILO!! Hack care is what is you always do! What a lie... u couldn't stop care about others.

 

TODAY~~ I woke up! rubs eyes... go to lappy... see hus online... momo! say morning~! bo reply... i think he's bz that time. so ok i went audi. Cant remember much after that. I play n play n play. OMG! I forgot wat happened today! All i can rmb ooo! I played with Poems! Make me happy a bit. But he told me his sad sides. Make me go mellow again... haaiizz... he said something so nice to my ears. But it doesnt last long. I went to see Momo but he so upset with daddy and yet I want to go lalaing with him. I thought wana share with him and dau bout Poems since they noe how much i like him but hahaha! Stupid me going in. They so emo! don't have any reaction. LALALA~ ^w^;;; so i go out of audi. Listening to songs. Chatting with Z. Suddenly saw Mushy online. YAAAY!! Then we go in audi. Play a bit. Then show Mushy my new dress and Ryu new outfit! XD! Then she said to me... If i go on with Ryu... I can't find yandao leee... LOLZ! So she said break le. I duno wat to think... I just brk. Hahaha! Then she brought me play club. LOLZ! Play a few rounds, then someone pmed me... asking questions... I ask Mushy wat to do. I scare nia. Then Mushy say JYJY!! TRY TRY! so i go on gave him my msn. So there... he's ok. Not that handsome but ok. Chinese. Indonesian. Anyway... he doesn't show much interest now. Blegh. Nvm...

 

Then I play audi again. Soloing~~~ Soloiiiingg~~ Soloooiiiing~~ tot used to it. But i feel so empty... suddenly daddy mummy and dau online... i think they saw me soloooiing~~ yah ok...fine i soloooing~~ then i out of my room to check on something. Saw dem in the room. Not Fbing or tagging. So I came in. Daddy hi me. I hi back. Then not long after that daddy asked me something he SHOULDN'T ASK!! Make me so angry till now! Smack finished soloing?! I was like.... FINE! AND ANSWERED HIM THIS BACK>>> not yet! After this continue! One round play with them. Out! Soloing again! Locked room! until Darkie come and asked me not to lock room. I listened to him and create another room... Man I feel so tired... I DON'T WANT GO TO COLLEGE BACK!! I DON'T WANNA BE ALONE!!

 

Haaa... Thanx yang yang for accompany at the last min. Thanx a bunch to Darkie and Yennz too. And thank you Mushy for helping me finding Yandao... hahaha! Thanx for the song Momo! Those songs are soothing... Thanks to z for cheering me up^^. I feel guilty for less contacting him... well he's busy with WoW anyway. What a day...

Be With You~

What a song… haaiizz~ nvm le, HAPPY HAPPY ^w^!! Already in Perlis! And I'm not happy bout it. Hates the fact I'm going back college these few days more… BLEEEGHH~~ It's 3.27 am now. Slept in the car so much makes me don wana sleep yet! NYAHAHAHA!! I just log off audi. Someone wans to cpl me for real. I said to him I HATE GUYS HU LEAVE THEIR GERS!!! And if u really wan me… try to get me! And get interviewed by my bros and sis! Then he said forget it! Bye! Guys are just de same! =p=! Pathetic! There are few hu are nice…hmmm speaking of nice guys… didi didn't online these few days… Wat happen to him?! I hope his okay!! He's not well lately… I'm so worried!

My Desktop~ I'M A RILAKKUMA FREAK!

Misc pictures!

Ai Oboetemasuka?

Hmmm… I don't feel like myself today… Don't feel like wana go hyper like usual. Somehow I feel abit lonely again. I know it's lame to have this kind of feelings. But I can't stop myself from feel like this...

I just got home from Perlis by plane. Stop at KLIA, My dad fetched me and we went home at Muar Johor. So tiring but never mind just as long as I can be at home… haizz…

my flight tix~

Just knew about Puppy's condition from Dark, I feel so down bout it. Hope he'll be fine.

~My rilakkuma~

RAAAAAAAAAAAWRRR~!

Hmm… Hmmm…. Hmm….. OEI I WAN GO HOME LAR!! @!##@%^&%^*&I*^&^(!#@!#~~~ why the heck is that lecturer still wan make class rite now?!! It's already cancelled at first place!! HELL! I need to do my stuff today since tomorrow I have to be at the airport 1 hr before 8.45!!! RAAAWR!! Die la me….=p=;;….mooou!! Kusoo!!

Yesterday nite was tiring but fun! Having Buka Puasa at my frens house! Took a lot of pictures!

LALALALA~! SOT SOT! Some of my classmates...

Oyah! My first Raya card… from Zaza! Hahahaha!

Neko Nikki~

Yaawnzz… is class now. Showing some stuff bout historical boats. Quite interesting… Lalala~ Anyway—I WAN THIS LAPPY!!!

Hahahaha! Take that MOMO!! Mushy nag you cuz she care lor! HAHAHAHAHAHA! The difference of me and her is she nag her way well I nag too but with my own way! Still!! This is how we show u that we really do care bout u!! ^w^v! Next time MOMO u must tell us a word if u emo!!! SMACK!! I bet U'll feel the same too if we're like that… ^w^

Lately I'm so tired in class… =p=;;… wana go back to hometoooowwwnn~~ buuu~~



Just came back from dinner for berbuka puasa~~

BRAND NEW WORLD LYRICS!

hashiridase hashiridase sora takaku hatakazashi

 

hatenai kono umi wo koete sagashi ni ikou yo

dare mo imada mitsukerarenai sekai no kiseki wo

takanaru mune omoi no mama tsuki susumu dakesa

yume oibito ga nokosu ashi ato wo

 

donna arashi no yoru mo kokoro hitotsu ni sureba

koete yukeru yo itsudatte

 

hashiridase hashiridase sora takaku hatakazashi

dare ni mo misenai namida mo aru keredo

oikakete oikakete yume wo sasu COMPASS wa

massugu na hitomi sa tachidomaranai

Around the world Start me up!

 

umakui kazu kabe no mae de ugokenakunatte

nanimo dekizu kuchibiru kami utsumuku shisen ni

michi ni saita hana ga tsuyoku nanairo wo egaite

iku michi wo irodotte kureru no darou

 

toki wa tomaru koto naku nagare tsuzuketerunosa

mae ni susumou sono ashi de

 

hashiridase hashiridase dare yori mo sono saki e

nige dasanakereba ashita wo tsukamerunda

oikakete oikakete me ni utsuru subete ima

masshiro na kokoro ni shirushite yukou

Brand new world Start me up!

 

tatoe kurayami no naka michi wo miushinatte mo

akiramenai de te wo nobase hikari e to

 

hashiridase hashiridase sora takaku hatakazashi

dare ni mo misenai namida mo aru keredo

oikakete oikakete yume wo sasu COMPASS wa

massugu na hitomi sa tachidomaranai

Around the world

 

hashiridase hashiridase dare yori mo sono saki e

nige dasanakereba ashita wo tsukamerunda

Brand new world

oikakete oikakete me ni utsuru subete ima

masshiro na kokoro ni shirushite yukou

Brand new world Start me up!

Brand new world Start me up!

Brand new world Start me up!

 

 

TRANSLATION IN ENGLISH

 

Start running, start running

Holding up your flag high in the air

 

Crossing over

The endless ocean, let's go out in search

No one can yet find it

A miracle in the world

We just push onward

With the feeling of a pounding heart

People who follow their dreams leave footprints behind

 

No matter what kind of stormy nights we have

If our hearts are as one

We can get through them

Always

 

Start running, start running

Holding up your flag high in the air

There are tears

That we don't show to anyone

But follow, follow

The compass that points toward dreams

Has an eye that points straight ahead

We can't stand still

Around the world, start me up!

 

Things aren't going well, we're against a wall

We can't move

We can't do anything, biting our lips

We look like we're hanging our heads

A flower that blooms on the road is strong

We're going to color the road that I travel on

In a rainbow of colors

 

Time won't stand still

It just keeps on passing

So move forward with your own legs

 

Start running, start running

Up ahead, more than anyone else

If we don't run away

We can grasp ahold of tomorrow

Follow, follow

Right now, let's go and chronicle, with pure white hearts

Everything that's reflected in our eyes

Brand new world, start me up!

 

Even if we lose sight of the road

In the darkness

Don't give up

Reach out your hands toward the light

 

Start running, start running

Holding up your flag high in the air

There are tears

That we don't show to anyone

But follow, follow

The compass that points toward dreams

Has an eye that points straight ahead

We can't stand still

Around the world

 

Start running, start running

Up ahead, more than anyone else

If we don't run away

We can grasp ahold of tomorrow

Follow, follow

Right now, let's go and chronicle, with pure white hearts

Everything that's reflected in our eyes

Brand new world, start me up!

Brand new world, start me up!

Brand new world, start me up!

~Love And Joy~

[Suki na uta uta tte! Suki na hito syasyin wo mite!

If u like the song sing it! If u like the person see the picture!]

 

=Real Life?=

LOLZ… yesterday I supposed to go to my mentor's house. But I didn't go since I got a very painful tummy ache! ><;; haaaiizz… can't do anything, just lying on bed and play game. The talk session is ok. So so… somehow I got someone I don't like in my class and yesterday she did something I felt so irritating! However I never wan care bout her. She's just an eyesore! Mezawari da!!=p=;; Anyway I am too lazy to do my homework!

=AuditionSEA?=

Haaaiizzz… asking ppl to 'Mai haiz mai haiz…' isn't suited enough for me… cuz im de one hu always keep sighing… why leee… People never noe how to appreciate things… once it's gone u are sure gonna regret it then u noe how priceless it is. Why im saying like dat?! ><;; why why why?!! Haaa… Mushy… Momo… all in my life I don't hope of anything now… but for u two to be happy! U can take all the happiness I have! Just don't turn your back… and be happy!!! ^_____________________________^!

Guai? Shuai? Mei mei? Yandao?... @w@;;; (11.12 pm)

==Life is just so cool huh? NOT! For the time being…==

aAaaAaAaAaaaaaa~~~ Sleepyy~~ man I wana play so much!! But my eyes oledi sooo tired… feels like wan faint oledi! Hahaha^w^;; Hmm… What to say huh… I've been very lazy to write anything these days… got sooo many assignments I can't coupe up with! Got Bahasa Melayu, Got Coccuriculur! Netball! Got Environmental Education, Got Islamic Studies, heee……. Too stress too stress~!! Push ups push ups!! Aaaargh!! Then then tomolo gotta wake up early since 7 am must be at institute for some session with some old lecturers who wana tell us about how are their experiences in Sabah and Sarawak. Bleeghh~~ I think I need to upgrade my internet line… package 68 is quite slow and irritating… gonna upgrade it to 98. Yaaawnzzz… still sleepy… O yah... sadly... one of our classmates... got accident yesterday and he broke 3 of his left ribs... luckily he still survive. Get well soon AN!

==AUDITIONSEA==

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~!! My birthday last Monday was cool!! ^w^v!! Is the best ever!! Cuz got Mushy! Momo! Mimi! Onlinee~!! Xiao mei oso!! Burger didn't online!! Crieeess… Bubbles jie and Gummy di oso!! Hahaha!! They helped me do bbq~!!>w<!! then then! What so shock was the fact that Zonda bought me a dress that I like SO MUCH!! The dress is INDEFINITE!! Falls… he sot ar? But hor really thanks to him for be there for me that nite^w^! That's the most important thing.

Aaannd MOMO n MIMI's wedding toooo~!! YAAAAAAY!! XD!! At first he so sad MIMI don wan take wedding with him. She asked daddy to take for her… I was so worried he emo like hell. v___v;;….but then he was ok back and all thanks to daddy^w^. Si daddy^w^*…LOLZ

Here are the pics:-

=^w^=