My heart filled with mix feelings... am I ok? am I not? I don't even know. But what I know... it's heavy. Why? Why it doesn't feel good? hahaha... I'm crying now. Stress? maybe... tomorrow is the start of my tortures. Damn... I don't know... I just need someone to poke me from behind and say HEY! CHEER UP! ^^;; hahaha... I feel so selfish now. I couldn't do anything when they need me and when I need them I cried... LOLZ. BANG HEAAAD! hahaha! That what I always do when I emo before! Sorry mushy! I couldnt stop crying now. Listen to songs that momo gave me soothes me a little. ^w^ NYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~! WAKE UP STUPID MILO!! Hack care is what is you always do! What a lie... u couldn't stop care about others.
TODAY~~ I woke up! rubs eyes... go to lappy... see hus online... momo! say morning~! bo reply... i think he's bz that time. so ok i went audi. Cant remember much after that. I play n play n play. OMG! I forgot wat happened today! All i can rmb ooo! I played with Poems! Make me happy a bit. But he told me his sad sides. Make me go mellow again... haaiizz... he said something so nice to my ears. But it doesnt last long. I went to see Momo but he so upset with daddy and yet I want to go lalaing with him. I thought wana share with him and dau bout Poems since they noe how much i like him but hahaha! Stupid me going in. They so emo! don't have any reaction. LALALA~ ^w^;;; so i go out of audi. Listening to songs. Chatting with Z. Suddenly saw Mushy online. YAAAY!! Then we go in audi. Play a bit. Then show Mushy my new dress and Ryu new outfit! XD! Then she said to me... If i go on with Ryu... I can't find yandao leee... LOLZ! So she said break le. I duno wat to think... I just brk. Hahaha! Then she brought me play club. LOLZ! Play a few rounds, then someone pmed me... asking questions... I ask Mushy wat to do. I scare nia. Then Mushy say JYJY!! TRY TRY! so i go on gave him my msn. So there... he's ok. Not that handsome but ok. Chinese. Indonesian. Anyway... he doesn't show much interest now. Blegh. Nvm...
Then I play audi again. Soloing~~~ Soloiiiingg~~ Soloooiiiing~~ tot used to it. But i feel so empty... suddenly daddy mummy and dau online... i think they saw me soloooiing~~ yah ok...fine i soloooing~~ then i out of my room to check on something. Saw dem in the room. Not Fbing or tagging. So I came in. Daddy hi me. I hi back. Then not long after that daddy asked me something he SHOULDN'T ASK!! Make me so angry till now! Smack finished soloing?! I was like.... FINE! AND ANSWERED HIM THIS BACK>>> not yet! After this continue! One round play with them. Out! Soloing again! Locked room! until Darkie come and asked me not to lock room. I listened to him and create another room... Man I feel so tired... I DON'T WANT GO TO COLLEGE BACK!! I DON'T WANNA BE ALONE!!
Haaa... Thanx yang yang for accompany at the last min. Thanx a bunch to Darkie and Yennz too. And thank you Mushy for helping me finding Yandao... hahaha! Thanx for the song Momo! Those songs are soothing... Thanks to z for cheering me up^^. I feel guilty for less contacting him... well he's busy with WoW anyway. What a day...
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